Dreams come in different shapes and sizes. And different packages. They can be private and low-key, they can be brash and bold. They can be sturdy and solid, they can be fluid or fragile. On one particular, crisp October day in North Audley Square in London, my dream came in a big red sports bag. I was 21, a fledgling songwriter and was about to have my first meeting with a music publisher – Elton John’s Rocket Records.
Contained in that sports bag was an envelope with a cassette of a song I’d written with my then songwriting partner Bob Mouat. God knows why I took a sports bag to house a cassette and a couple of sandwiches, maybe that was considered rock n’ roll chic at the time. If you’re willing to go with that rather unlikely explanation to replace the one I don’t have, we’ll go with that.
Impossibly early for my meeting, I’d been sitting on a park bench for over an hour. I was beyond nervous. Elton was the first artist I’d seen live and he and his lyricist Bernie Taupin were my main songwriting inspiration, so to have an appointment at his music publishers was spine-tingling, even if Elton and Bernie were oblivious of my existence and probably partying over in LA. None of that mattered. What did matter was that I was here, today, with my song.
Of course an essential element for any dream is how you envisage it panning out. This may have nothing to do with the eventual reality but that doesn’t matter at the start, you have to see it being glorious and exciting and everything you want it to be. I’d made this appointment weeks ago which gave me plenty of time to decide in my head how this was all going to work out.
How the Dream Meeting would unfold
I was going to play the song and the Publisher Man (the mists of time have left him nameless, so from now on Publisher Man is his new moniker) would nod approvingly, realising this could be a red letter day in his career. I’d be sitting here maintaining my cool; I knew the song was good.
Then the door would open and someone would step in. I presumed it would be another publisher but as I turned my head I would recognise the face. It was Elton.
He was dressed as casually as Elton John could dress at just gone 4 o’clock on a Thursday afternoon, cutting a striking figure in feathered headdress and diamante suit. Publisher Man would acknowledge EJ (as in my head that’s how Elton would soon ask me to address him), and continue listening to the song.
EJ would ask who’s song was playing and Publisher Man would introduce us. EJ didn’t normally cover other people’s material but he would ask my permission to put the song on his soon to be recorded multi-platinum selling album. I’d answer casually that that I’d need to ask my songwriting partner but it shouldn’t be a problem. He’s then offer us a 3-year publishing deal and ask if I’d be willing to write some lyrics for him. I replied that I’d be happy to. At the same time I felt the warm, excited flow of urine trickle down my inside leg.
As he leaves the room he gives a respectful nod to my big red sports bag and the rest would be rock ‘n roll history.
How the Actual Meeting unravelled
Five minutes before the appointment I approached Rocket Records, sports bag in tow, and walked in. Either side of the receptionist desk with it’s huge Rocket logo hung various framed photo’s of Elton’s album covers, live photos and gold discs. My heartbeat quickened. I introduced myself to the receptionist informing her that I was there for my appointment with Publisher Man. She looked puzzled, then informed me that he wasn’t there.
In disbelief I explained how I’d phoned up two months before and made the appointment. She asked me if I’d written to confirm the appointment and I replied that I hadn’t as I’d taken the phone call as verbal confirmation of the meeting.
I asked if there was any other Publisher Person I could see and she explained they only had one other and he was out of the country. I was crestfallen, and she could see it. I told her that I’d travelled down from Liverpool for this one appointment. Her polite apology understandably failed to lift my spirits.
I turned and slowly walked out of Rocket Records, never to return. Elton didn’t ask me to refer to him as EJ and somehow his career stumbled onto multi-Grammy and Oscar successes, not to mention a Knighthood, without recording our song. Or using my lyrics.
The dream changes shape. Again. And Again..
I learned some important lessons from that rather naive first trip that rendered it more than just a useless and crushingly disappointing journey. First, always back up any appointment with a letter (this being the days before emails), and never go down with just one song and one meeting. We may never have hit the heights we originally aimed for but from then on we always got respect, we eventually got songs published and had many great experiences.
But some things don’t change; the constant and undying need for passion in that thing you love doing, for that fire to remain burning inside. Most importantly, knock-backs still serve a purpose if we are only big enough to learn from them, and adjust accordingly. Dreams are pliable, they can change shape when needed. Only submission to the disappointments can destroy them completely.
And if you allow disappointment to destroy your dream, then what else is left?
12 thoughts on “ELTON JOHN AND MY BIG BAG OF BEAUTIFUL DREAMS”
That’s brilliant Paul
I never realised how far back you started your creative writing and musical dreams.
Keep it up- for sure
Oh yes, I’ve definitely been in it for the long haul Sue! Many thanks for reading, and your lovely comments x
A great read. Never give up on your dreams!
Thanks Nat, and all of it true, dreams getting bigger. Appreciate you reading x
Excellent story as always and love the classy bag! Could maybe be classed as vintage now!
Look forward to reading more in the future.
Well thank-you Jane, I could be classed as vintage myself! Maybe not classy….
Another blog this week, but no bags included.
Wow! A man of many talents, who would have known you’re amazing at other things than answering my moan full phone calls!
Wow, An! Yes, five days a week I like to put aside the rock ‘n roll lifestyle to try and get you umbrella’s. Hopefully, I’m better at the writing! Thanks so much for reading, Paul
Sometimes it takes a slap in the face of reality, to wake up and know where you are and where you’re meant to go. Never let go of the dream. For me, “Been there, done that” HUGS
Thanks Chuck, the dream still lives on, but probably better in some ways. Appreciate you reading the blog and commenting, thanks again.
Yes Paul you hit the note again another enjoyable note! It a great life experience.
I was rooting for you but reality was screaming in my ear. Such a hard lesson to learn…..what was the song called ? 💜
Thanks for reading. The song was called ‘Every Passing Day’, I’m still proud of it but unfortunately it didn’t get to be heard in the great corridors of Rocket Records! It did open a few doors for us elsewhere however but didn’t actually get released.